I don’t even know what happened between you and I. I panicked and I did something I said I would never do.
I made all of these bull shut excuses and say there’s no use. I lied, I got
Scared. Scared of what ill turn into when all of this happens. I got scared to hurt you. You’re such an amazing girl that I could never hurt. You mean everything to me, you still do. I’m sorry, I love you.
I can’t build enough courage up to text you and tell you that I’m a fuck up and I need you back in my life. It’s impossible. After saying you fucking hated me last night broke my heart. I mean, it’s payback for the fucked up thing I did.But I wasn’t expecting it. even though i hate myself more than anything. It caught me off gaurd and it’s eating me up. I need you. I’m sorry, I fucked up. But, I have to let you go. You’re a better person than I am. You deserve so
Much more. And I wish you the best in your life, with your next boyfriend. I hope he knows how to treat you. I hope he knows to text you all the time, to get you cheese fries, to pamper you and show you off, to encourage you in everything you want to be.
I got weak, I’m going to miss you. So much, but I can’t have someone in my life when I hate myself.
I love you.